BORN IN WEST HAM,EAST END OF LONDON,AT THE SUNSET OF EMPIRE AND THE DAWNING OF THE AGE OF NEFARIOUS -A PRECOCIOUS CHILD AND LITTLE CHANGED SINCE.I AM OR HAVE BEEN A MUSICIAN,MARKETING MARVEL,WRITER,COMPOSER,FIGHTER,SUBVERSIVE,DEVIANT,COMPOSER,BOTANIST,BIKER,DJ,HUSBAND,PHOTOGRAPHER,GARDENER,PAINTER,FATHER,TAXI-DRIVER,STEPFATHER,ILLUSTRATOR,CRIMINAL,BROTHER,LOVER,ENTOMOLOGIST,HERBALIST,TAROTREADER,ANARCHIST,SOCIALIST,SHAMAN,ORNITHOLOGIST,FEENIAN,CRICKETER,WALKER,CARER,GOLFER,WEST HAM SUPPORTER,GAMECREATOR,LOST,CERTAIN,SCREWED,WICKED,DRUNK,LONELY,HAPPY,DEPRESSED,HURT,SPITEFUL,CRUEL,TENDER,THERE,CONFUSED,EXTRAORDINARY,EVIL,STONED,LOVED,FEARED,DESPISED,DELIGHTED AND I'M BEGINNING TO BELIEVE THAT THERE'S PLENTY MORE WHERE THAT CAME FROM OH YES-I LIVE NOW AS I HAVE FOR THE VAST MAJORITY OF MY LIFE IN NORFOLK.AFTER SOME SMALL SUCCESSES IN VARIOUS FIELDS OF THE CREATIVE CALLING I WITHOUT ANY PRIOR DESIRE OR PLAN,AFTER TAKING A CALLCENTRE JOB AS ALAST RESORT,DISCOVERED A DEMON SALESMANIPULATOR AND MARKETINGTHING INSIDE ME-TO SUCCEED ANDTHEN TO JUST CONTINUALLY IMPROVE DEMANDED A KEEN AND CONSTANT CREATIVITY AND THE MONEY AND THE KUDOS WHICH CAME WITH IT SERVED TO FUEL ME EVER ONWARD GRATIFYING ABOVE ALL THINGS MY LEO EGO LIKE NEVER BEFORE NOR SINCE-BUT 12 YEARS OF DRUG DRINK SEX AND EGO DRIVEN DELERIUM TOOK THEIR TOLL-NOT ON ME PER SE-BUT THOSE CLOSE TO ME AND THE EMOTIONAL FALLOUT AND HURT INSIDE LEFT ME TOO MESSED UP TO REMAIN OUT OF CONTROL BUT IN ABSOLUTE COMMAND-AND THEN AFTER THE ONSET OF A LONG AND ONLY EVER WORSENING ILLNESS IN MY OLDER BROTHER AND WITH TWO AGEING AND ONE INFIRM PARENT(S)IT BEHOVED ME TO BECOME HIS FULLTIME CARER AND MOVE TO LIVE WITH HIM-A DRASTIC AND SUDDEN DOWNTURN OF PESONAL AND PECUNIARY CIRCUMSTANCE.AND THOUGH I STUBBORNLY STAYED A HEDONIST OF ZEALOT PROPORTIONS I ALSO REDISCOVERED MY MUSE-NEVER BEFORE,NOR ASYET,SINCE HAVE I EXPERIENCED SUCH AN UNCEASING TSUNAMI OF,LARGELY MUSICAL,EJACULATION-THIS AT THE VERY DAWN/SCHOOLRUN OF THE WEB AND ALL THOSE DIGITALLY DRIVEN OPPORTUNITIES IT PROMISED,ESPECIALLY TO SOME ONE AS INFLEXIBLE,INDULGENT,SELFOBSESSED BUT ALSO INDOLENT AND INTOLERANT AS ME-TRUTH IS I HAVE A WHOLE FUCKING ARCHIVE OF STUFF RECORDED,ENGINEERED AND MADE ON LO-FI ANALOG D-STUFF WHICH IS OF TOO LOW QUALITY OR UNDISCIPLINED AND UNGOVERNED TO BE VIABLE-I HAVE TRIED TO REMIX REMASTER AND RE-EDIT DIGITALLY BUT WHAT I NEED TO DO IS TO START ALLOVER AGAIN USING THE DIGITAL TECHNIQUES I HAVE BECOME QUITE ADEPT IN-CUTTING OUT THE DEADWOOD AND THE OVERKILL TO CREATE A BODY OF WORK WHICH I KNOW HAS AN INHERENT AND INTRINSIC QUALITY AND MERIT-EXCEPT THAT NOW OR RATHER SOME YEARS AGO AS I OBTAINED THE HARD AND SOFTWARE AND THE WHEREWITHAL TO FACILITATE MY DREAMS I FOUND THAT YEARS OF LISTENING TO,SINGING,PLAYING,REJIGGING AND RE-PLAYING THOSE SONGS,CYCLES,SUITES AND THEMES TIME AND TIME WITHOUT NUMBER HAD LEFT ME BEREFT OF DRIVE,WILL,ENERGY,ENTHUSIASM AND ABOVE ALL-THE JOY NEEDED TO TAKE THINGS TOWARD THEIR DESERVED DENOUEMENT-THUS IN STASIS BUT IN THE HOPE OF THE WEAK-WILLED AND WASTERLY ARSE THAT I AM MY MAGNUMCANON REMAINS.I FURTLE AND FIDDLE WITH (PRETTY GOOD)BEATDRIVEN MIXES AND OTHER BASTARDS TOONS INSTEAD OR SPEND HOURS ON A COMPUTER TO PRODUCE SOME PASTICHE WHICH I COULD HAVE CREATED BETTER AND QUICKER WITH PAPER,CRAYON AND A LITTLE MORE ORIGINALITY.A FEW YEARS AGO MY BROTHER DIED AND A FEW YEARS BEFORE THAT I MET MY PRESENT LADYWIFE-WHO NOW NEEDS A FULLTIME CARER FOR HER LIFETIME OF HEALTH AND WELLPERSON ISSUES-WHICH IS FINE-THAT IS WHAT LOVING SOMEBODY SOMETIMES REQUIRES,BUT LIVING IN A RURAL DUSTBOWL ON BENEFIT LEVELS CONSIDERED INADEQUATE 20 YEARS AGO FOR MANY YEARS NOW SERVES TO DIMINISH NOT ONLY ONES SENSE OF ENTITLEMENT AND WORTH,BUT ALSO IN AVERY REAL SENSE,MATERIALLY,SOCIALLY,EMOTIONALLY AND CONNECTIVELY FROM RETAINING OR REGAINING IT.THEN I FOUND DEVIANT ART AND ALLITS DEVIANT DEVIATIONALISTS-IT SHOWED ME WHAT I COULD DO-WHAAT I SHOULD DO AND WHAT I HAD TO DO TO COMPETE WITH THE PRODUCT POURING OUT FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD-SO I HAVE HAD NO SCHOOLING IN ANY FIELD OF VISUAL ARTS ACADEMICALLY-NOR HAVE I THE TRAINING IN THE APPLICATION OF DIGITAL METHODS FOR GRAPHIC DESIGN AND EXPRESSION,NOR HAVE I ACCESS TO THE PROFESSIONAL QUALITY SOFTWARE THAT MANY TAKE FOR GRANTED BUT I CAN AND I WILL USING A MIX OF FREEBIE FILL-INS ANALOG ACCESSORIES MY OWN CREATIVE FACULTIES AND ANY OTHER MEANS BE NOT ONLY COMPETING AND COMPARABLE WITH THE MOST,MANY AND THE ALL-I WILL BE CREATING MATERIAL OF RARE WONDER,SINGULARITY,BEAUTY,PROFUNDITY,PROFANITY DEPTH,DEPRAVITY AND,OF COURSE DOWNRIGHT DEVIANT SPLENDOUR THAT EVEN I WILL BE TAKEN ABACK-AND BY SUCH DEGREES SHALL I RISE AND CLIMB BACK TO THAT PLACE WHERE ONE ONCE AGAIN FINDS PURPOSE AND WHERE ONE REALLY DOES BEGIN TO MAKE ONES OWN LUCK-TO EACH THEIR OWN MEASUREMENT OF HOPE AND GROWTH-MINE'S AT THE GRASPING AT STRAWS AND AVOIDING THE CRACKS STAGE-NOW I FEL,HOWEVER SMALL OR UNIMPORTANT IT SEEMS TO OTHERS, THAT THERE IS A UNIVERSE STILL THERE WHERE I LEFT IT AND A WORLD FILLED WITH ARSEHOLES AND SOULS JUST LIKE ME-WELL,QUITE LIKE ME ANYWAY..HOPE ALL THATS BIO ENOUGH..ME?I'M JUST WARMING UP!